Saturday, August 12, 2017

Why I like Bondage

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Ever since I was a kid I always knew I liked guys tied up. Big strong masculine men helplessly restrained like a sexy toy just waiting to be used. It was the hottest thing ever and nothing else moved me quite like it.

But I didn't understand why. And you can imagine how it made me feel different compared to the other boys. Not only was I attracted to my own gender---I also fantasized them all bound up.

The fear of being called a freak ruled my life for years to come---why was my sexuality so different? Why couldn't I just choose to obsess over girls like my peers in a normal fashion? I began to look inwards to find my answers. If I could understand why... then perhaps I wouldn't feel like a freak.

I learned fairly quick that "being gay" was normal and lots of people are born with different sexual orientations. Though a minority, it was in no way strange.

But that still didn't explain my fixation on bondage. After all, there's no such thing as a "fetish gene." A fetish is born from events in your life. So for me to develop a bondage fetish so young, it had to be something that happened during those early years---more specifically, at school. And the more I followed that path of thought, the more things began to make sense.

What shaped my sexuality was the way I interacted with the gender I was attracted to. The other boys constantly bullied me in their need to assert their primitive dominance as the tougher "alpha males." And I begin to fantasize of a scenario where I could sexually dominate them in an equal manner.

The classic fantasy of "Role reversal," where you swap roles so that the submissive partner becomes the dominant partner and vice versa. A means to make you feel empowered by being in charge of someone more dominant and stronger than yourself. And bondage is the perfect medium to explore such a fantasy.

But... I never felt like I was weak or submissive in the first place. Part of the reason I got bullied was because I always fought back. I never accepted the submissive position they tried to force on me.

Instead, it was the power dynamic between males. I both identified as a dominant male and was attracted to other dominant males. But that scenario proposed a conflict since dominating requires a partner to submit, and you'd just get two males fighting to force the other into submission.

Finally I had found my answer as to why I like bondage. It turns the required power exchange for dominance into a physical external object---a restraint---and allows you to attach it to another dominant partner, stealing away control of his body. He wouldn't be taking orders or bending over like a submissive partner and he could be in a submissive position without betraying his dominant identity.

And his struggle resembles the conflict of trying to be dominant in a submissive position. It even excites him, the physical sensation of putting all his muscles to work in a sexual situation... fighting for his very sex.

Sometimes he even gets so lost in the lust of it all that he forgets to be dominant and finds pleasure in a situation he never thought he'd enjoy.

Wednesday, October 26, 2016

Ivern's Brush



Shen and Zed's secret session becomes a lot less secret when their hiding spot vanishes together with the brush. (For those not familiar with league, Ivern is the first champion with the ability to create temporary brushes which hides champions inside of it.)

Sunday, October 16, 2016

Jaraxxus

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Grand Warlock Wilfred Fizzlebang has finally managed to summon Lord Jaraxxus under his control! Surely nothing could go wrong this time...

Monday, August 15, 2016

Overwatch

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Genji, Reinhardt, Reaper, Soldier 76, McCree and Hanzo from Overwatch.

Sunday, February 28, 2016

Once More

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The two ninjas find themselves joined together in peril once more, unable to stop bickering at each other as they struggle.

Zed and Shen from League of Legends.